the secret life

This is the extent of my life that you all dont know. The mysterious russian side that none of you are aware of.

Thursday, December 29, 2005


------ Stuff ------

Name: Natasha Renea Hamand
Nickname: Russiancommie
Single or taken: single
Place of Birth: Home Hospital
Zodiac sign: Gemini
Male or Female: Female
School: Faith Christian

-----Appearance -----

Hair: light brown soon to be dark brown
Eyes: Brown (cause I am full of crap)
Nails: randomly cool
Height: 5'3"
Crush: Maybe (But I am not telling anyone)
Do you like yourself: Most of the time
Braces: Never ever ever
Think your hot?: Maybe (HECK YES)
Pierced: ears
Tattoos: One heart behind my left ear.
Lefty or righty?: righty


kiss: I was in fifth grade. His name was cooper.
first best friend : Iseala Gaita
first sport: Basketball
first pet: Howey my cat. She got run over by the ice cream man.
first school: Linwood elementary
first crush: Randy Martin
first concert: Dont remeber


movie: Aladdin
show: CSI
Color: Pink
Music: Rap / Hip Hop
Song: A whole new world / from aladdin
Food: Potatoes
Drink: Diet coke
Candy: Reeses
Sport: Football
Clothing Brand: I hate brands
School: Who in there right mind had a favorite school.
Books: I dont want to talk about it.
Magazines: You cant get this out of me.


Eating: Nothing
Drinking : Diet Coke
Listening to: Adrienne burp,throwup and hic up at the same time.(sick)
Mood: hyper
Thinking about: Cant tell you. Cause it pertains to you.
Wanting to: go do something worth while.
Watching: nothing
Wearing: Clothes

-------Future Plans----

kids: adopt a little black boy
married: some time soon i hope. (Gosh who ever is supposed to marry me needs to get crackin)
careers: Psychologist

----Opposite sex------

cute or sexy: either or both
lips or eyes:(I agree with meg) I prefer them to have all of the usual body parts
hugs or kisses: I am a sucker....... both.
short or tall: tall
easygoing or serious: easy going and funny
romantic or spontaneous: spontaneous
fat or skinny: no gordo!!!!!!!
sensitive or loud: sensitive
hook-up or relationship: relationship
sweet or caring: I like both.
trouble-maker or hesitant: Trouble -maker (Adrienne made me put it)

-------Have you ever?-----

kissed a stranger: Well.......once ....twice...three times.... well lets not count anymore. I sorta lost track ( Just kidden.)
drank bubbles: never
worn glasses/contacts: fake ones for fun.. Sun glasses at school too...
ran away from home: Well yes once...only to New york... No big deal
had an x-ray: yep
broken someone's heart: Unfortunaly a couple
broken up w/ someone: yes
turned someone down: heck yes
cried when someone died: yes
cried @ school: yes

----do you Believe in-----

God: heck yes.
miracles: yes
love @ first sight: yes I love all of you.... only at first sight though(kidden)
ghosts: no
kissing on a first date: with out the slobber yes

-----Answer truthfully----

Is there someone you want but know you can't have? Well maybe but you can never know...... Believe me its not you.!!!!!!!

Wednesday, December 28, 2005

here is the scoop

I will be returning to school on the fourth and will continue there for the time being. Why because I love faith so much well .......... I enjoy all the people and have a lot of friends there. Also beacuse i havent had a lot of time to figure the other things out. Which need to be resolved but i am having a hard time resolving. Luckly I have a few friends who are going to try to help me figure this all out. In the mean time pray for me.

Saturday, December 24, 2005


I feel like a confused crazy fool.

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

Random Questions

Here are random questions that someone wanted answers to .......

About the opposite gender

1) Do you like to date men that are taller or shorter than you?

What kind of question is that. I am already really short so any man shorter than me would be a migit. So of course taller!

2) Do you like men with brown, blond, gray, black hair.

These questions or more like options are ridiculous. Why would I even consider gray hair. I would have to go with brown or black. Blonds are normally all about appearance. This is only my personal opinion though.

3) Do you prefer a man who is buff and built or skinny and tall.

As said before I like the tall aspect and yes the skinny aspect to but definatly not lanky.

4) What about personality? Do you prefer some one who keeps you lauphing and entertained or the seriouse but sweet man who makes you feel like a million bucks?

Well I cant choose one over the other I love to smile and lauph. But see I also love feeling like a million bucks. So this cant be answered. To have it my way all the above.

5) Last one on this subject. Pick one aspect that appeals to you the most that a guy would do. Spend qualitly time, buy you gifts, give you words of affrimation, or do odds and ends for you?

Ahhh like the five love languages. Except there is one problem you forgot physical touch. (You only put four but I wont tell anyone) Mine would be a tie between physical touch ( the one you forgot) and words of affrimation. I can choose and when I get married I suspect I wont have to.

About Yourself

1) If you could change anything about your physical self what would that be?

It would have to be......well......this is hard one.......not that I have a lot of things I would want to change but if I had to pick something it would have to be my short fingers. This is a subject that I am very sensitive about. People make fun of then a lot and everytime I want to cry and go hide somewhere where no one will find me. So not jokes please.

2) One thing about yourself mentally that you could change would be?

Duh I would have a photographic memory. You should know that.

3) Is your closest friend a male or female?

A male. ....... Is that bad. ........... Nope see males keep you sane. Girls have all these emotions, thats why a guy should be your best friend because they do not get caught up in all that mush mess called emotions.

4) You talked to me about the convesation you had with a teacher and a friend about men in uniforms. Do you like a man in a uniform.

Thats a very large question. See like as in what. Yes I like how uniforms look on specific people. But as for the people. Some men in uniform that I know are real jerks. So I guess I could say sometimes.


1) Fruit - strawberrys or cantolope I can not decided.

2) Candy- Reese's all the way baby!

3) Book- True Honor its about a navy seal and his girl soon to be wife.

4) Person- Thats not fair!!! ( Rebecca, Adrienne, Jared, Meg, Adam) Their all tied for 1st.

5) Season- That is without a doubt spring and fall. Not to hot not to cold. Just right.!!!!!!!!!

6)Movie- Alladin. I love that movie. Lets have an alladin party over christmas break!!!

7) Store- The candy store.

8) Clothing Brand- You can keep you brand names to your self.

9)Thing to do- Dance Dance Dance all I want to do is dance only kidden I love to talk and lauph

10) Song- A whole new world from alladin. I want this song to be sang to me one day.

Random things.

1) Why wouldnt you eat before 3.

Its call shrinking stomach. Not that any of you have any clue what that means.

2) What are your favorite phrases or words to say.

Were all going to die. Gosh. Are you seriouse. Stop that or stop it. About that. andbring it back in.

3) What are you looking most forward to in the next six months.

getting through life

I dont have time to finish this so ( to be continued)

Friday, December 16, 2005


One final down and four to go. Aaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
I think my brain is going to explode.
I really am stressed out about a certain situation pertaining to one guy at school.
Other than these things its been a great day and I am actualy in a more than great mood.

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

nothing to say

i have nothing to say for once

Friday, December 09, 2005

Snowed In

There is no way that I can get out of my house. Picture lafayette with several more inches of snow and snow drifts up to your ribs. It is a nightmare out here. But the good thing is no school. I told you all that I would not be there Friday and look what happend. Its not real fun thought cause i am stuck here and can get out or hang out with friends or anything cause of all the white fluff. ARRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.

Tuesday, December 06, 2005


I will not blab on about how frustrated with school and home that I am but will ask you all to pray for my situation and the choices that I must begin to make. I need all the wisdom and strength that God can give me. Thanks to all you that have been there and are still there. I appreciate it greatly.

Sunday, December 04, 2005

Not So Boring After All

Well yesterday I was talking about being all alone. Well then I checked my e-mail and an old friend had e-mailed me his number. So I called him when I got off. Thinking we would talk for a while and then I would have to go and find something to do. Well this friend named adam had moved away several years ago and when talking to him found out that he lived just across the river. ( Now can you tell I live in the country) So we decided to hang out and we went driving around and to his house and talked a lot. I found out that while he was gone he went in to the navy. How ironic is this. So my whole weekend was not spent alone. Dosent god work in mysteriouse ways.

Saturday, December 03, 2005


well it is saturday and once again I am all alone with nothing important or exciting to do. All my friends are in Lafayette or in Indy or at college. They are all so far away. And there is no one left in this measly little town to do anything with except james. (stalker) So I think I will waist the rest of my saturday sleeping. How that the memories made this weekend are more extrodinary than mine. May all of you treasure every moment. You never know when it might be the last.