the secret life

This is the extent of my life that you all dont know. The mysterious russian side that none of you are aware of.

Saturday, April 22, 2006

Remember the good ol music

"Have You Ever?"

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start

Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all of your life
You'd do just about anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for the day when they will care

What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you in my world
'Cuz baby I can't sleep

I love this song. I heard it for the first time in a long time last night while I stared at my yellow wall for three hours thinking intenly about things....
I think it summes all things up. I hope you are all more confused than you were before I wrote this. And a couple other things

James... I am not telling. I dont care if you come to my house and try to kidnap me and force me to tell you I will never give in. Especially to peer presure. I am not telling. I am not telling. I am not telling.

Andy.... Why .... Thats really all I have to say to you.

Tirzah.... You have corrupted my mind in the last couple weeks. I dont think we should hang out you are a bad influence....

Meg....What are you thinking..oK DONT answer that.

Jared... I promise nothing is wrong with you know what. I just was taking it all in

Jordan.. I miss you with my whole heart...( Said in a very sheepish way)

Mary... Your moving how cool is that. I look forward to sleeping on the bar.

To the rest of you well I ran out of things to say. Catch you all later.. To be continued

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

quote of the day

When the world seems to be revolving with out you and all that is in you has come to a hault
Do you fight to keep going or slip slowly into the drowing waters of silence

Saturday, April 01, 2006

What to come.

Things have been most amusing latly. And this whole daylight savings time thing ticks me off. I do not want to have to set my clock forward an hour for then I have to get up and hour earlier and it does not make me happy. Instead of getting ready at what would be five in the morning for school I now have to get up at four and it is just not fair. But life is not fair what can I say. So I must ask who is ready for school to be over and for all you seniors who is ready to graduate. I cant wait till that day gets here. Then all the chaos of this time will be gone. As for this summer who know what may be or where I may be.......... Doors are opening and it is really exciting. Bigger and better things are presenting themselves ... I would really like to get out of Indiana... But who wouldnt. The reasons for staying are dwendelling and are few and far between. Who knows what may happen between graduation and August....